“I don’t want to be influenced by someone else’s history of me,” photographer Nan Goldin wrote at the end of her essay in her major photography collection. sexual dependence balladfirst published in 1986. In her debut novel (which remains her best-known work), Golding never changed the foreword (although she would re-contextualize the afterword every decade or so).
Golding also explains in the introduction why ballad Dedicated to her sister Barbara, who committed suicide when the artist was 11 years old. “I have lost all real memories of my sister. I remember what I thought of her, I remember what she said, I remember what she meant to me. But I don’t remember a specific sense of who she was,” Goldin wrote. “I don’t want to lose anyone’s real memories anymore.” Goldin’s desire to document those closest to her and preserve their most intimate and mundane moments together is a thread that connects the hundreds of documentary and snapshot-style photographs that make up her signature work.
To commemorate the 40th anniversary of the publication of this now-classic photography book, the London outpost of the Gagosian Gallery will exhibit all 126 photographs that appear in “Gagosian.” sexual dependence ballad. The work has been exhibited in the past at museums including the Museum of Modern Art and Tate Modern.
named after a song in a german play threepenny opera (1928) Photographed by Bertolt Brecht and Kurt Weill, photo within ballad Most of these photos were taken between 1973 and 1986. Goldin photographed herself and those around her—friends, lovers, drag queens, addicts—all struggling with various desires and relationships (including their own with themselves). Settings include New York, Boston, Berlin, Provincetown, and Mexico, with environments such as bars, bedrooms, cars, beaches, and brothels. They chronicle the twenty-something Goldin’s wandering journey as she leaves her troubled family in suburban Massachusetts at age 14 to start a life of her own, in and out of boarding schools, foster homes, communes and relationships.
earliest iteration balladTrue to its operatic title, this is a slideshow with an eclectic soundtrack. Goldin envisioned it as a 45-minute show, screening some 750 images, accompanied by as many as 40 songs, screened in New York nightclubs and small venues around the city, where she would hold a projector and click through the slides herself. The musical numbers are diverse and include The Velvet Underground’s “Femme Fatale” (1972), Screamin’ Jay Hawkins’ “I Put a Spell on You” (1956), Dean Martin’s “Memories Are Made of This” (1955), and other songs by Maria Callas and Dionne Warwick.
this ballad Slides are part of the famous 1980 collaborative group exhibition “The Times Square Show”.“The book eventually became widely known, exhibited at the 1985 Whitney Biennial, and subsequently published by Aperture the following year, becoming a famous photography book today. The book retains some of its musical origins, with the table of contents being a list of song titles that the reader can pair with images as desired.
The photos themselves push boundaries in several ways. These images position Goldin as a kind of voyeur, an unexpected role for women in art history. Her use of color, rather than black and white, also helped shift the acceptance of the prism that serious photography could be. Goldin also helped raise awareness of personal snapshots as art through her novel fusion of diaries, family albums, fashion photography, paparazzi photography, and photojournalism. ballad.
“Goldin did not photograph the so-called natural world,” critic Hilton Als wrote of the series. “She was photographing her life as a show business career, and it was a world where differences began to appear on the surface. If you dressed like a woman, you could be a woman. Or you could dress like yourself, a dolled-up badass who, say, struggled to escape social decorum by doing all the things she wasn’t supposed to do: cry in public, show her ectopic pregnancy scars, pee, maybe miss the bathroom, fall apart and then glue herself back together again.”
One of the iconic images from the series is a scarred self-portrait, One month after Nan was beaten (1984). The photo shows the photographer’s face after being beaten by her ex-Marine and drug-addicted boyfriend Brian, who also appears in the film. ballad. A month after the incident, the photo still bears the unflattering traces of abuse, showing Golding’s swollen nose and blackened eyes (one of which required stitches to prevent the eyeball from falling out of its socket), as well as her trademark red lipstick. (After the incident, the artist became seriously addicted to drugs and checked into rehab in 1989.)
Goldin’s photographs are very specific reflections of her own life and specific moments, yet the personal becomes universal. this ballad As a record of the bohemian punk style of the 1980s, it has defined downtown New York culture for a generation. Her subjects exuded a sense of eternal youth, but this was soon interrupted by the AIDS crisis, which claimed the lives of several of Goldin’s friends and subjects. when ballad Originally published as a book, new york times Chief photography critic Andy Grundberg writes, “What Robert Frank’s ‘The Americans’ was to the 1950s, Nan Goldin’s ‘The Ballad of Dependence’ was to the 1980s.”
“sexual dependence ballad Golding later wrote of the work: “A diary is a diary that I let people read.” A diary was my way of controlling my life. It makes me obsessively record every detail. It allows me to remember. “



